okays so nw i can bloody fucking post finally. after blogger is like fucking screwed. arh hecks whatever. so im like back frm work at taka. made 2 new friends today with this one cashier guy n gal. both were damn friendly. guys frm ngee ann sec while gal nt sure. we jus kept joking ard. lan worked for e afternoon shift and i took morning bt i still waited for him all e same. spending my time watching the nike basketball competition out there at ngee ann building. wells today went to work at 9.20. supervisor told me to put a tie on so i looked more like a manager instead of a promoter. cool. hahahas. had to move loads of stuffs with caiying today. and tick all the stuffs present. my legs are like fricking pain after standing the whole day. lan came at one.20 and i went for my lunch break. eating yakitori. nice bt ex. ahhahas. after that i came back then chatting with lan crapping ard bout all kinds of stuffs and so called 'neighbours' ahhas. esp the one near our dept. rights lan? hahas. i was hoping in vain. really hoping to see a orange shirt today bt to no avail. sad. im sucha fucker. wtfs was i doing. letting my dream jus go off like that. well that happened yesterday. bt ill nver forget it. tsk tsk.went for dinner break with lan n elaine.after lan finished his job we saw kelvin and slacked with him ard before walking to ps to db mrt station. lan hahas remember the so called 'paikias' on nel? lols. okays gonna recap what happened yesterday;met with lan at 10 before going taka. im working at basement one talking hall btw. thats y lan said can talk as much as we want. LOLS. we needed our ics to make a pass so i went hme again. jus to take my ic there. fucking wasting my time lols.den we helped setting up the christmas stuffs in the noon. and at 4 .43pm. i saw this girl. i mean there were lotsa neighbours walking ard bt this girl was diff frm them. shes totally like WOW to me. she was wearing an orange tank-top with another shirt inside and jeans with her belt sticking out. she was wearing denim converse sneakers. omg. i swear this is what people call love at 1st sight. ahhas. shes not exactly the hottest or prettiest gal ive seen ard. bt. i can tell shes the one im looking for all along. shes exactly 100 percent to what im looking for.and no shes not THAT WOW PRETTY bt shes damn pretty to me and to lan he was like "aiyah normal la boy". no way man. she hanged ard my dept for damn long. i wanted to ask her num bt i did not dare. i jus fucking dunno why i did not ask cos im fucked up. fuck im fucking fucking fucking regreting it totally. after when she went off from the departmental store i was like really sad. was like fuck man why dint i ask for her num. then after 45 mins it was dinner break. i told lan i wanted to find the girl and lan told me he wanted to eat delifrance. just as we walked out of the departmental store. OMG. she walked jus past me!!!!! i was like what the fuck! if this is not fate i dunno what it is. lan told me u wanna ask jus ask bt i jus dint dare. my whole face was flushing like fuck.and like duh her friends took notice of me and the one in a black shirt smiled. i wanted to ask at that moment bt i simply could not. fucksi feel like a fucking gu iang. i followed em to lotsa placeslike the yakitori stall, e ice cream stall and then back to the stairs.lan just ate his beef bolognese hahas. i fucking dunno why i still dint ask. i pretended to be talking on the basement erm pavement and SUDDENLY she and her friends walked till near 2.3 metres right of me and starting chatting.when i turned, she, as in SHE the orange girl smiled and me! at that time i was already like fucking blushing like shit so i jus ran back to delifrance to sit down with lan and tell him. he jus told me dont disturb me la boy. fucker. hahahs after that i lost contact of them and was like fucking pissed at myself then still on the lookout for her. fate already gave me two chances and i dint treasure em. fucking hell. lan and i went upstairs after that to watch nike basketball. i was like damn sad by then. went to watch the people going for the bball tryouts. and before i knew it. I DUNNO WTF WAS HAPPENING. SHE WAS JUST FUCKING BESIDE ME CAN! she turned and smiled a totally devastingly cute smile to me and i smiled back. then her frens started to giggle and stuff.maybe im paranoid and think shes smiling to me bt to me i did think that way. i was like fucking shy dunno wtf is wrong with me. she was beside me;as in 0.5 metres away. im like fuck man den i jus fucking ran off to the other side to see the scores.i was already punching the wall(i mean one of the set up pillars then this guy looked at me with a funny look and i realised i was making a fool of myself hahas. fuck man. i decided to call lan and i went to the previous side again. then again i saw her and her friends taking pics of the basketball stuff with thier samsung hp. then they walked off suddenly without notice. lan told me ' eh they go off liao' i was like huh. then i looked. they were gone. FUCKING FUCK. im feeling so fucking fucked up now. sorry for the vulgarities really feally damn low. im thinking of her all day long damnits. i hope to see her on sun since there might be a chance of seeing her again. oh wells i believe in fate. im gonna wait however long it takes to find her. for the 1st time in my life i see a girl thats 100 percent my type. fucks dont wanna talk bout it anymore. after our job we went to tm to slack with xinyi, michelle n her stead ard. then took a bus hme. feeling so damn bloody fucked up right nw. =(